PAST
This past weekend I graduated from college and said goodbye to all of my friends that I went to school with. I said goodbye to my professors, and now am in the process of saying goodbye to my surroundings.

Present

Right now I am playing a waiting game. I am waiting on the test results of my moms test on her right breast (there is a lump there, and as of right now, we have no idea what it is, whether it be a cyst or a tumor, we do not know.
I am also thinking about taking the LSAT... I just want to take it to see how I do. So today I went to Barnes & Noble w/ Jasmine and Josh after the movie, in order to do get a prep book.
I am spending as much time with my friends before I leave, because I am going to miss them muchos!!!

Future

In my future I have a lot. I have plans with friends til I leave, I leave on the 31st of May, I have my mom's test results, I have prep for the LSAT(I will take it in October) unless I register tonight for the one in June, which I realy want to do.... I begin my job with Edward Jones on July 7.

I completed school as of April 30, 2008.
I graduate on Saturday, May 10, 2008.

The date of the move is on May 30, 2008.
Before I move, I am seeing Sex and the City w/ Jasmine and whoever else.
It comes out that day, and I will leave pretty soon after that.

For the next 26 days I have several activities to do around here, all mainly with Jasmine, and anyone else who wants to join.
We are going to go to Six Flags again, goto Piedmont Park, the High Museum and see the Louvre collection, a Braves vs. Mets game, and a few others.
We are going to have a fun time.

This Saturday there are 14 people (including myself) that are going to Maggiano's for my graduation, I am excited because it will be a great time.
My grandfather comes into town sometime Thursday and leaves sometime Monday.

My dog is fantastic, I love her.

So,  since the last post... Things have gotten somewhat better. Dad and sis are still not talking. But if I were her, I wouldn't be talking to him either. He left this past Thursday for NC where his boat it, but will be back in time for my graduation (WHICH is in THREE weeks from yesterday!!!! wootwoot!!!).

This week is my last week of school, essentially...
This week I have:
          -a project to be presented with a group tomorrow.
          -a project to be presented with a group Wednesday
          -a test covering 5 chapters Wednesday
and then Monday I have a 10-12 page paper due....
So this next week will be pretty busy!!!
But I am ecstatic!!! Its my last week of undegrad college ever...

The date that is tentatively set for the beginning of our travel out to Colorado across country with all of our animals and stuff...

Woot woot

So, this weekend has been terrible...
I entitled this the terrible twos because terribleness usually comes in twos with me, occassionally three... but right now, mainly twos......
Last night, I was worried about my moms cat, so I went and opened the attic door, hoping to hear some form of life, and i do.. i hear a weak feable mew... I begin to worry about her, because Cook's had placed traps in the attic, and i had no idea how big, or where they were...
I call my sister almost in tears over a cat that I have a love/hate relationship with, and my bestfriend comes over with a flashlight, and so does my sister...
Well before my sister comes over, my bf gets there, and she gives me a flashlight she brought, i go in the attic where i hear the cat, and i wasnt sure if i had to step on the 2x4's or not, i had a feeling i was supposed to just walk on those, but i wasnt sure, and decided to risk it.. well, bad call on my part, bc my leg went thru and right into my mom's room... only my leg went, and the rest of me stayed up there, so i pulled myself up, and my sister arrived shortly...
Well, we finally found the cat, and she was in the way back of the attic, where none of us would be able to get to her, so we closed it up, and just hoped she'd get out fine.
Well, my parents arrive home pretty smashed becuase my sis had called to warn them... my mom just laughed, and my dad did too, or so i thought.. apparently he was PO'd... but just laughed at me... so how am i supposed to know?
Anyways, that was last night....
Today just started off all wrong.... and i think we all knew something was brewing...
My dad blew up today... I don't realy wanna go into all the lil details, because it is quite long, but here's the short run down, he got mad at me, i apologized, told my sister when she called, she cmae over to help pack, asks him whats wrong, he goes off  on her, she yells back, he storms an wakes my mom up and yells at her while she is half asleep, and then comes out and yells at my sis more, and threatens her,throws things at her, and then storms out. he calls my mom after 10 mins of driving, and all she can think is if he is ok, while he is on the phone yelling at her, telling ehr that she needs to decide who's side she is going ot be on, ours or his.
I am now at my sister's house on an air mattress with my dog, instead of my $900 bed at my own house...
I was scared to leave my mom there by herself, but knew that i needed to leave for my safety... he called 2 hrs later, and asked if we were gone yet, im sure yelling it. she told him we would be gone in 30, so i took a shower, got stuff together for tomorrow, along with my laptop charger, and school work, and a baby for my dog, and ran out of the house... feeling like a wet dog, because my hair was soaked...
I met my bf at CFA, and i vented to her, and we talked, and got my mind off of it...
I know he was off of his meds... antidepressants, we all take them in my family. I was on the medicine he is on now, and so i know how it affects you if you miss a day, and i promise you he did.... but whatever, he won't admit to it if he did or didnt... and quite frankly i wouldnt believe him if he said he had taken it....
I am so drained right now, because i am also sick... and I feel so bad for my mom, because she doesn't deserve any of this... her only fault is caring too much about everyone else but herself... Her sister, who lives in california (thats where she was raised) is in the hospital, she had a stroke this past week, and is in a coma. she is slowly dying, and there is a DNR on her, and ugh....
I am just done.
I am tired.
I wish I could write him off... but he is my dad, and he is her husband.
this isnt the first time he has done this...
im pretty sure it wont be the last eitherr....

So lately it seems that there have been some oddities in my life...and I am not so sure as to why... As a little joke my friend posted on CL, all that came of her postings were white guys (very few black guys---mind you,she is of african american descent). I posted also tonight, to see what would happen, and I had the opposite occur, I had plenty of black guys, old guys, and losers to choose from. Not one good thing came of that... and I am not sure why. I posted in 2 cities, 1 in the current city i am in, and another in the city i am about to be in.
None of them were particular appealing to me,, but since it was a bit of experiment that is ok.
I am moving in less than 2 months, and it is kinda crazy.
One of my good friends, seems to no llonger be one of my good friends and i am notsure as to why. this year she has changed a lot, and everyone has noticed it.
It is sad, but let her do what she do, right?
I miss her though.
I came home last night from being gone for 3 days and my dog reacted much like i imagined she would, with undying love. She truly makes me feel loved. When she sees me after I have been traveling, she becomes uncontrollable, her little body wiggling whichever way, her wimpering iwth excitement, and the incessant licking.. I love it all, because it is one of hte best displays of unconditional love in my life...and i wil never take that for granted....

I am still sad though, because i miss my friend.... but whatever..
i have my dog, and my other friends;-D